I pray this pain will go away from me someday

I miss her so much, she lives 5 minutes away and it feels like halfway across the country with this silence and rift the size of the Grand Canyon. Most days I just want to drive over there and hold her and never let go. Swallow my pride and say fuck it losing you is not worth this heartache. We were both always to stubborn for our own good. I can’t believe it’s already been 5 months some days it feels like a lifetime and other’s like yesterday. I am not better off without you for you always were and will always be my rock and stability in this world. I hope you come back to me soon for I am losing my sanity without you.I always needed you more than you needed me.

Currently Reading- When Christ and his Saint’s slept By Sharon Kay Penman
Currently Listening- Unwritten Natasha Bedingfield

Siamese Dream

So its 5:30 in the morning and I haven’t slept in 48 hours so I felt like whoreing my favorite song and I love this version of it but nothing will ever beat seeing it performed live. People don’t understand my obsession with this song or why I tattooed the lyrics on my back but if you get verse in the song then you will understand.So I’m off to go resort to the bottle of ambien that I hate so I can get some sleep

Pink ribbon scars
That never forget
Ive tried so hard
To cleanse these regrets
My angel wings
Were bruised and restrained