Well let’s see I realized I am never getting him back, strike one for me being a cold-hearted bitch. I was and am still threatened with the state of CT taking away my kids (sorry if I don’t want them to turn into part of the mindless, soulless, heartless masses fuck you to). I wouldn’t say dated but had a casual relationship with a guy that made me realize that it is ok to be me curves and all (thanks lover). I lost one of the longest friendships that I have ever had 15 years gone in the blink of an eye (Judas). Every day was and still is a struggle to not want to swallow the whole damm bottle of pills or run a razor blade down my arm. I am obsessed with death life is just a gun barrel to our heads. I am going down with the grace of a sinking ship. Hopefully 2008 will be better and if not at least I am still alive if you can call this living.
Reading: A Thread Of Grace (still)
Listening To: Beautiful -Smashing Pumpkins
