It's back

I am getting that felling again like I want my head to turn off and the world to drown out. Why can’t it just stop the world comes at me from all sides lately I have to deal with everyone else’s problems and just don’t have time for my own. I spend most nights pleading with myself to just ignore this felling and it will stop but it doesn’t and there is only one way for it to end.

Currently listening to: local band Omerta Verse
Currently Reading: My son’s music lyrics yes he lets me he likes my constructive criticisms

Anger Managmet

Why are people so angry lately my son had become a real pain in the ass. He has some major anger management issues. I guess it really is not good sign when every time you ask him to do anything you get a knot in the pit of your stomach wondering how he is going to react. Unfortunately I have felt that know many other times when his father was around. God I would do anything for him not to turn out like that man.

Currently Listening: Fall Out Boy-Bang The Doldrums
Currenly Reading: Embracing the Moon: A Witch's Guide to Rituals, Spellcraft and Shadow Work

Yipee It's Not Cancer

Yes I got my results back and it is not cancer. Yes Yes Yes thank the stars above now I can breath a little easier. It doesn't fell like a fucking elephant is sitting on my chest.

Scared Shitless

ok I am scared shitless right now last week I found a lump in my right breast went to the Dr and they are going to biopsy it on Tuesday. This can't be happing 32 year olds don't get breast cancer do they.

The Blame Game

These eyes are spilling tears
Making puddles on my shirt
Remembering they way it was
The way it could have been

You said you tried
But you really didn’t
You never showed you cared
We played the blame game you and me

Well baby boy look were that ended
I forgot big strong men don’t show emotion
But you forget I saw you cry a little
The day I put your son in your arms

So remember well why you left
Because I will move on
And when I am gone
You will only have yourself to blame


On a side note out of the mouths of kids

Me being a smart ass when the kids were driving me nuts

Why did I have kids again?

My sons reply

Because you decided it would be a good idea to lose your virginity

I almost spit my drink all over the place LOL I trained him well

Currently Reading: The out of Synch Child
Currently Listening to: My Chemical Romance